Fuqups

I'm a mad people. I admit it always. Sometimes I will be like a crazy people. Fooling around, joking insanely with those who are close with me. But I will be vulnerable once being hurt. Like taking off the fuqing mask is just too hard for me. I mean. I get hurt easily. Something easily make me done of everything. EVERYTHING. You know that acting strong and being strong is totally different. It's hard for me to draw a distinction here because sometimes it frustrated me though.

Hardest time. The past few weeks. Having a foolish broke up, sucks exam result and etc. What doesn't kills me makes me stronger, stand a little taller? Yep. I admit that. Once Jay told me, in our life, we must put our head higher, middle finger even higher. Totally a nodding head. I always know what I am, where am I and what I want. Being clear what to be done in specific time period. I can be that strong. Receiving the worst result I ever had. Heart undoubtedly hurt, but I get something even hurt. Hence, when I passed through those fuckups... bad results mean ntg to me anymore. I din say IDC but it just compare to both, I have faced the worst condition ever. So, I decided to retake two subjects. Remaining the 4. I know it will be stressful or etc, but I will put more effort to make everything right. At least a try? I should try. Just tell me I can do it. Give me some distractions to avoid me from over thinking. At least, by studying and scoring?

Immense gratitude to Chan Kah Mun, Nga Ching Sim and Some Wong. You girls did the best for me and being there for me. Whenever and whatever, hows and whys. Girls, thanks for being my side. Listen to me and cry for me. Wiping my tears and advising me. Thanks a lot. Although I'm still conquered by some so-called sadness but overall my recovering rate is good. Standing by my side especially last few weeks, and after we received the results. Dears, thank you for being my baes, darlings and best friends. I know I'm not strong in facing all these fuckups... but yet you girls make me stronger when I need to be. You are the ones which never put me down and never get any IGNORANCE from you girls. Forever love you and thank you.

Was planning my future. <3 Planning the date for Santorini, Maldives and Paris. Coming soon.

Moving on is simple, it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult. 

* I get hurt and depressed when I finally discovered that he never belongs to me before. Not even once or twice.

I am recovering soon. 

Lo, 
Crys.