Finally, I have time to actually sit down alone and quietly to start blogging. I'm so sorry being too busy and lazy these few months. Not I have abandoned my blog here but after my A level exams and immediately started my Intermediate studies with UOL, although we have classes for only 3 days but my schedule is full like -.-
Studying alone in student lounge today while waiting for my bitch. Recently, I started journaling with my Traveller's Notebook. (TN). A new expensive habit. I fell in love with all those washi tapes and paper crafting. Enjoy decorating my TN, inserting some new pages for it, bringing along whenever I go. Feel so addicted and can't stop living in my own world with my TN! Its a nice experience indeed. Idk why and whats make me in love with all these. I started to google search, insta stalking those talented people who shares their TN with me, starting exchanging and doing snailmail with people around the world. I realize that nowadays people is working and busying their own life without noticing how the outside world goes and they simply busy with their gadgets and they just communicate with social apps, keep in touch with emails but they abandoned the use of lettering and posting. It is so fun. The feeling of waiting a mail and checking the mail post box every day instead of clicking into email forward and reply. Although it sounds so expensive buying stamps and letters, but the feeling is different. Trust me. I enjoy receive all the snailmails and happy mails. You should try out tho :) writing a letter, posting a postcard, sending some happy mail and share your love around the world.
I started to handle my own students. Class. Teaching. Ballet. Idk what makes me change and I started to accept the challenge and responsibilities as a ballet teacher. Being a ballet teacher is not my dream and I know its not in my planning. Since young, I dance because of the passion I have with dancing, enjoying my own world without caring what happens outside the studio but just merely telling my audience, My Story. Until this July, previously I was just a part-time replacement teacher because I don't want to accept the risk and responsibilities as a teacher to send my own students to exams, it will be challenging and stress. But starting of July, after listening to my principal, my view started to change. That's another way of love towards dancing. Maybe I'm not talented, having no nice body requirements to do ballet, having no knowledge to be a dancer, but my love to ballet, to dance will not decrease and that's part of my life. Thus, I started to teach. This is a promise to my very first ballet teacher Adeline Song that I will be a good ballet teacher like her; this is a promise to my students that I will make them proud and confident while they are performing or having exams. That's my responsibility to my own and my passion.
Admitted to the hospital after celebrating my birthday on 07092015. Appendicitis. Went through everything alone. Went through an operation alone and healing speedily now. I'm so thankful to those who cares and visited me during the period when I'm in hospital. Well, basically, because of this I stop dancing for 2 months and withdrew myself from my advance2 tap exam and postponed it till next year. I cried for days because of making this decision. I gave up. I felt sorry to Phoebe as this will be the first time she entering into the exam hall without me, previously we are together in every tap exams. That's fate. Frankly, the operation do teaches me alot. :)
Should start studying and revising. Stay tune.
Signing off.
Lo,
Crystal.
